Why Does a Chicken, I Don’t Know Why
A line from a Pooh song, and what changed when I stopped needing to know why.
Hi — I’m Nay.
I run businesses, build systems, and spend much of my life thinking, making, and figuring things out as I go.
I write here to give my thoughts somewhere to rest, and to leave a record I can return to — to see where I was, what I believed, and how I have changed.
I leave some of myself here, too — so those who cross paths with me have somewhere to begin knowing me.
Thoughts
Emotions Are Private
During recovery, I learned that emotions consume energy too. I had been giving other people almost direct access to what happened inside me. Maybe emotions deserve a boundary—not suppression, but protection.
What Is Beyond?
I spent much of my life asking what was beyond the next achievement, experience, or stage.
Illness showed me another kind of beyond—and made the present moment feel enough.
Masterly Inactivity
During recovery, I learned that not every problem needs another action. Sometimes the wiser choice is to create the right conditions, wait, and know when enough has already been done.
The Hamster Wheel
Almost everything I did had to lead somewhere else—work, exercise, travel, even rest. Recovery made me see the hamster wheel, and remember that some things can simply end in themselves.
Complex vs. Complicated
I had been treating complex life problems as complicated problems—believing that if I understood enough variables, I could control the outcome. Recovery taught me that sometimes, the boundary moves.
Bless You
A simple “bless you” followed me from a part-time job in the UK into my marriage, and eventually to a hospital bed. I learned that after we have done everything within our influence, sometimes all that remains is to wish something good for someone.
